I told her. Not as I had planed. I was hoping to be able to sit her down and talk it over with her. I wanted her to understand. But no such luck. And not she is gone. She left right after that. I thought it best to let her go. I didn't want us fighting and making things worse with the babies. I was going to let her calm down before I went to her.
Not too long after that Oliver and I shared our first date. Wow...we had a date. I sure hope this means that there is an us. It was so perfect. He had planed out everything. Made it so special. I had never in my life felt so wanted, so cared for. It was truly magical.
I care for him so much. I love him. I do. I would give up my name, my money, everything to be with him the rest of my life. I just might have to. That damn reporter Rita has made it public that Oliver and I are together. If my father sees it he might just disown me on the spot. Making my becoming an Death Eater much harder I am sure. But Oliver is worth it. I can feel it. He is different from the others around me. He is so much different then Pansy. I see the way he looks at me. He loves me...I can feel it with every touch and feel with every time our eyes lock.
I fear I might lose my unborn children. I think Pansy is trying to take my children away form me. She has asked the headmaster to place them for adoption. I will fight for them. They are my children as well. I love them. I want to be a father to them. I want to be apart of their life. I will fight to be the one to raise them. I just hope that Oliver can handle being with a single father.
Okay well it;s getting late...and I don't know if any of this is making any since. I haven't been sleeping well. I have had so much on my mind that it is hard to sleep right now. I wish he was here to hold me at night. I know I can sleep in his arms. How I want him to hold me...
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